Sonic landscapes, echoing vistas

What is the quickest false assumption people make about you?
Submitted by JJ.

MX02

It's disgusting how much fun and happiness can transpire in one day. After a rough start this morning, what with my father waking up determined to find everything wrong and not up to par, and having a minor panic attack in the car, the day took a turn for the much much better.

I have a new best friend. His name is Moelephant (Moe) and he is basically a much bigger version of the little cutie Estephan that Lauren has. I love him so much, more than I love life itself and I feel that with him, I can do anything. Plus he has widdle feet! And little rosy cheeks. And froppy ears ^.^ I currently don't have a proper camera so I've been forced to downgrade to phonepix but whatever. I'm only taking a picture because I promised this guy at the HS that was gonna show him a pic so that he could see the adorableness.

:D We had to drive back from Concord Mills with Aaron's momma, which I suppose could have just been worse. So I'm not complaining, even if she griped all the time about Aaron's driving. Whatever, we had Bruce and plenty others to drown her out.

Hmm. I love late night escapades to the popshoppe. Delicious uncommon sodas are the funnest thing to try. And try we did, only to find the new Tazo peach tea. At least, the new addiction, just from a gas station rather than starbucks. It's some smoky mountain soda black cherry flavor and it makes my taste buds giggle and squeal. I'm really happy with everything right now and I'm pretty sure I cannot be brought down at the moment, not for anything. I feel high on life and love. I feel like things are right and I am just so content to sit and look at the stars at night, snuggled in the crook of Aaron's arm, sipping on a delicious soda and absent mindedly rubbing the belly of the most adorable stuffed elephant I've ever seen in my life.

In other news, I have to get my wisdom teeth out during Christmas break. Hollah.

Snow Patrol
Please don't let this turn into something it's not
I can only give you everything I've got
I can't be as sorry as you think I should
But I still love you more than anyone else could

All that I keep thinking throughout this whole flight
Is it could take my whole damn life to make this right
This splintered mast I'm holding on won't save me long
Because I know fine well that what I did was wrong

The last girl and the last reason to make this last for as long as I could
First kiss and the first time that I felt connected to anything
The weight of water, the way you told me to look past everything I had ever learned
The final word in the final sentence you ever uttered to me was love

We have got through so much worse than this before
What's so different this time that you can't ignore
You say it is much more than just my last mistake
And we should spend some time apart for both our sakes

The last girl and the last reason to make this last for as long as I could
First kiss and the first time that I felt connected to anything
The weight of water, the way you told me to look past everything I had ever learned
The final word in the final sentence you ever uttered to me was love

The last girl and the last reason to make this last for as long as I could
First kiss and the first time that I felt connected to anything
The weight of water, the way you told me to look past everything I had ever learned
The final word in the final sentence you ever uttered to me was love

And I don't know where to look
My words just break and melt
Please just save me from this darkness
Please just save me from this darkness

And I don't know where to look
My words just break and melt
Please just save me from this darkness
Please just save me from this darkness

It feels as though I haven't really written anything in ages. I'm feeling that creative bubble inside of me, building up, and I'm wondering how it plans to erupt this time.

I'm scared to death of everything in my life right now. Everything. Everyone. I am afraid of it all. And for no reason at all, except for the fact that things are going right. I have been given a juxtaposition of sorts with regards to my life. Going from dark, low, depressed, dread, fear and worry, nagging nagging worry to light, high, happiness, excitement, safety and hope, vulnerable vulnerable hope. I've had my fill of intense change in the last year, and I would really like for things to just stabilize and stay that way. Just for a bit longer. And a bit more. Just a bit more. Of course, we don't get to choose when shit blows up in our faces, no more than we get to choose when we get what we feel is right and fair and just. So basically, I'm left with this blank mindset of knowing all of this. I don't want things to change. I like my life right now. I am happy. I feel so fucking happy. I feel hopeful for the future. I've seen a small part of the world and I'm already lusting for more. I'm setting goals. I haven't cared in so long and now I care again. I don't want to lose that, I can't. I won't.

I can't wait for tomorrow because Aaron and I are planning a trip to Concord Mills mall. And I just have this amazing feeling like nothing will go wrong tomorrow. Nothing will be able to stop us from going and having such an amazing time that it will turn into one of those days that gets logged in your personal history of events that shape your life. That you either can't or just plain don't want to forget. Maybe I'm being falsely hopeful but I don't think I am. I just want to have some fun, and hang out with my best friend.

I am happy.

I also had to say goodbye to some of my friends at the Humane Society today as it was my last Saturday working there. I hate goodbyes, I've come to realize. I'll really miss some of these people as I've kind of really come to think of them as friends.

"This kind of heat really sucks all of the moisture out of you and forces it under your arms."

That was my favorite quote from today. Ever.

Du har vandret gjennom historien

fra begynnelse til slutt.

Du har sett menneskene bli flere,

sett dem utnytte naturen

sterkere og sterkere,

på jakt etter stadig større rikdom.

Idag står vi ved veiskillet

ved grensen av hva jorden kan tåle.

Veien inn i fremtiden

går gjennom din egen hverdag.

Den lette veien

går gjennom kortsiktig overflod,

Den andre veien

gjennom ettertanke og ansvar.

Du velger.

At the crossroads

You have wandered through history

from the beginning to end.

You have seen humans increase in number,

and witnessed how they continue to exploit nature

with better and better tools

in search of ever greater riches.

Today we stand at the crossroads,

at the brink of what the earth can tolerate.

The road to the future

passes through your daily life.

The easy road

passes through the valley of short-sighted abundance,

The other road

through reflection and responsibility.

It's your choice

Mens vi spiste videre,

med lukkede øyne,

døde de fattigste av de fattige

i farger og stereo på TV-skjermene våre.

As we ate on

with closed eyes

the poorest of the poor died

in colour and stereophonic sound on out TV screens.

Mens vi duvet videre

tømte vi havene for fisk

og drepte fjordene

med tungmetaller.

As we sailed on

we emptied the oceans of fish

and killed the fjords

with heavy metals.

And as we drove on

faster and richer than ever before

the world suffocated

in our exhaust gases..

Sheets of empty canvas, untouched sheets of clay
Were laid spread out before me as her body once did.
All five horizons revolved around her soul
As the earth to the sun
Now the air I tasted and breathed has taken a turn

Ooh, and all I taught her was everything
Ooh, I know she gave me all that she wore
And now my bitter hands chafe beneath the clouds
Of what was everything.
Oh, the pictures have all been washed in black, tattooed everything...

I take a walk outside
I'm surrounded by some kids at play
I can feel their laughter, so why do I sear?
Oh, and twisted thoughts that spin round my head
I'm spinning, oh, I'm spinning
How quick the sun can drop away

And now my bitter hands cradle broken glass
Of what was everything?
All the pictures have all been washed in black, tattooed everything...

All the love gone bad turned my world to black
Tattooed all I see, all that I am, all I'll be... yeah...
Uh huh... uh huh... ooh...

I know someday you'll have a beautiful life,
I know you'll be a sun in somebody else's sky, but why
Why, why can't it be, why can't it be mine

Pearl Jammmm.

HARROW MY NAME IS KELSEA AND I AM A HAPPY MUTHA FXA!

So yesterday, I saw me some effing Vikings.

I lied.

But I saw their badass ships. I'll post pics when I get home. Oh and their nifty Viking sleds. Vikings had sleds!!!! :D:D:D 

Today I'm off to some park that has statues that were all made by this one guy. And they are all hella naked according to Truls and Nina. FTW! I'm excited. I'll be taking my camera fo sho.

Oiiiiiyy I'm homesickkkk.

I've started project Aarons belated bday present and it's ffuuunnn. and slightly time consuming, but whatever the days here are like 450589463785 hours long so I've got time >.>

I crave the nights here. the time when I get to settle down and sleep. I usually dred sleeping and settling but ohmehchrist it's amazing here for some reason. Maybe it's the only time I can feel like I have just to myself.. solitude that is actually wanted. It's a chance to think and feel good. Contemplate the meaning of life xD

I've had horrible dreams the past few nights though. One was like an investigation to find this child rapist.. and I was one of the detectives. It's like an entire episode of L&O plays out, plot twists and all, and I'm a part of it. It's not necessarily bad, but it leaves you feeling uncomfortbale. Uncomfortable is sometimes worse than down right bad. Anyways, I've had dreams like that before but the man in this one did scare me.

I went to Best Buy (still a dream) and saw Steven. Well, most of him, I never saw his face, and he never saw me. I kept thinking he would, and I would run off somewhere else in the store. And then I wanted him to see that I was okay without him and that I didn't need or miss him in the least. That I know who I am, enough to stick to my values. I wanted him to see the red in my hair, or how much shorter it was, or that I was strong. I wanted an excuse to just kick him in the nads, really really badly.I would walk by him, not trying to be seen, but not trying to hide who I was. I never saw his face. Just his hair, his clothes, and his stupid knobbly feet. What kind of moron doesn't wear shoes to work? Yet another dream to leave me feeling uncomfortable.

And then I dreamed over and over and over that my father died. my daddy. I have no idea why he dies, how or anything. Just that I get a call from my mom and find out he's dead. I woke up around 3:30 in the morning and literally had tears on my face. I cried in my sleep.. I actually cried. Dreams almost never affect me to that extent. They are usually just figments of my imagination that intrigue as much as they entertain me. But I remember I didn't get to say goodbye. I woke up four or five times and each time I dreamt as though I hadn't woken, a continuation with dad dead. I also remember I kept trying to call aaron because I wanted to be with him, and no one else (I couldn't bear the thought of facing my distraught mother, or apathetic brother). and he kept putting off when he would see me.. he was with someone else whose identity is beyond my knowledge, a male friend. and he was more interested in talking to him and joking than helping me. I kept getting so frustrated.

That was all in one night, the night before last. Last night I can't remember any details of my dream, other than I once again woke up feeling extremely uncomfortable. Regardless, I can't wait to tucker down into bed once more tonight, as I'll be doing in a couple of mins (six hours ahead bbies). I just hope tonight will lead to more pleasant feelings..